Self Medicated

I swallow the anti depressant

with a big swig of wine,

the one that's bottle warns

“do not drink alcoholic beverages

while taking this medication”

But after a few glasses

the wine bottle begins to say

“do not swallow anti depressants

while drinking this medication”

I start laugh, hysterically at my own humor

then shove my fingers down my throat

and puke up

what I hope is the pill,

and continue laughing

not because I remember the joke

but because my puke is shaped like Texas.

Then I remember a girl I dated

who lived in Texas

the one who got away,

so I drink a few more glasses

until I throw up some more

and the Texas looks like Alaska

or the pacific ocean.